Outcast...

Yep, my cat sleeps in the bathtub...

Hey...I don't know it you know...but there is a show on Fox...it's called Glee...and recently they sang a original song...witch has kinda touched me...it's called Outcast... It's really optimistic...and it gives me a special kind of energy...you should listen to it... I've put the link below...

I don't know if you have ever felt like a outcast...or if you had your outcast group...it's a special feeling(well at first it sucks cause you don't know how good you're having it...but after some years, 6 or 7 give or take, you find your joy) it's a very freeing feeling...cause you know when your already a outcast you don't have to impress anyone(yep...after that maturing period of 6 to 10 years) but I'm telling you...never put yourself down for being special..."I'd better be outrageous than just an old clisee, I' rather be a rainbow than just another shade of gray"...so be your rainbow(and i don't mean gay...not necessarily...just gay as in happy...but be ...it's great...after a couple of years of course:))) 
                                                                     Sheldon style 
Well the idea behind this really is be yourself(even though a lot of people said that already I'm here to say it again and again until it gets in our thick dumb-ass ever growing minds), and don't forget to sing soft kitty once in awhile...

My cup..




PS:I've began writing some fiction, I'm not sure what I want to do with it but I will want to share it with you...just as I get at least half of it done...
And of course I do not own any of the videos embeded in this blog...they are only for viewing purposes only...have fun ;)
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Everybody wants to rule the world...

What do we really want from life? Have you ever  thought about that? Well...I have...a lot. And really I am ashamed to say I have no clue... You see I still am not sure how to live my life or why... 
Well not really...I have some guide lines... But I still am very confused...
I was never the certain one...yet I always tried...and tried to find a Purpose, a reason, a sign even...
Yes, I want to love and be loved , want a carrier, I want some stability in my life...
I never had much stability as far as I can tell...though is the thing I have craved for a long time... To be stable with someone...a partner... To have a place to call home... My home... Not a house...I have that...a house is where you live...a home is where you are happy and you know you belong...
I know I'm probably ranting again...but life is always toying with us... She gives you a cookie...and then she takes it back and kicks you in the nuts... Well life is a woman...or at least it thinks like one... One moment she kicks you in the nuts the other she asks what is wrong and gives you a hug...so unstable...
The other day I was having a late at night walk in the park with my sister and she asked my "what do you want to do in life"...for a couple of moments I had no idea what to say...then I thought of writing... Well the fact is our passions or ideas change in life...for example when I was 7 I wanted to be a paleontologist(dinosaur expert) and after that I wanted to be a doctor and after that a pharmacologist, I even thought of being a baker...

The thing is to find what you want in life and take it(or do it) before it is to late...you might say it's never to late...but you would be so wrong...
So let us rule the world or at least...our world...

Wild Young Hearts...

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"I'm not what I was last summer

Not who I was in the spring

Tell me, tell me, tell me when will we learn

We love it and we leave it and we watch it burn

 Damn these wild young hearts"

Wild young hearts- Noisettes

Change... It's always around the corner, it never forgives and never forgets, but sometimes, it is the best thing that could ever happen to us... It's what drives us forward on our paths...

"Every cell in the human body regenerates, on average, every seven years. Like snakes, in our own way, we shed our skin. Biologically we’re brand new people. We may look the same, we probably do. The change isn’t visible, at least not on must of us but were all changed completed forever.

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When we say things like, “People don’t change.” It drives scientists crazy because change is literally the only constant. Energy, matter, it’s always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. It’s the way people try not to change that’s unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting them be what they are. The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. The way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this life time is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change, that is up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it. It can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment, we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment we can be born all over again."

- Meredith Grey (Season7, Ep.1-With You I’m Born Again)

A couple of days ago I happen to find my old diary from when I was 17, I almost laughed my ass off... The silly things I was thinking at that age... Yes, change is brilliant sometimes... I know my road is not even half way through...but a small light would be appreciated...


Well...long story short...change is not something we always want or need, but it's there...waiting for us, good or evil,in good times or in bad times It's coming for you...it's your choice if you want to be prepared or not...

I Don`t Care...It`s Time...Now!!!

Now...i know i haven`t written anything from the beginning of the month(well, ok last year...but it`t not relly that far away) but the time has come for me to say some things...
Have you ever felt fed up with all the crap life and your friends have thrown at you? Well I have... I really am sick and tired of always feeling sick and tired...and although i know it is partially my fault...I mostly blame them...like any sane person would do...
You could say...well maybe you didn't try hard enough...well...no...i call bs on that...seriously I did all I could do considering all...
I honestly am not sure they know I'm fed up but I really can't care...dark ant twisty me is on the run now...no more bright and shiny idiot that I've always been...no more mister nice guy...just no more...
It's time to think I'm more important...it's god damn time to do myself a favor and be my own best friend for a change...
I've probably said this before...but this time I'm gonna stick to it!
I've never truly changed...I'm still myself...just a slightly less ok with the crap life and my friends give me...
Now...I'm not condemning anyone...I just want Them to see me for myself...
"It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
 That I'm never changing who I am"
"I don’t care what you think as long as it’s about me
The best of us can find happiness in misery
Said I don’t care what you think as long as it’s about me
The best of us can find happiness in misery"

"Feels like I’m waking from the dead
and everyone’s been waiting on me
At least now I never have to wonder
what it’s like to sleep a year away.
But we were indestructible,
I thought we could brave it all…
I never thought what could take me out was hiding down below
Lost the battle… win the war
Bringing my sinking ship back to the shore
Starting over… we’ll head back in!
There’s a time and a place to die but this ain’t it!"

I know,I`ve gotten a bit lazy in the end...but honestly I cant`n see what else to add...the lyrics speak for me...
I hope you guys learned something from this...
Alons-Y!!!


PS: The songs i`ve used for this one are:
Paramore- "Now"
Fall Out Boy "I Don`t Care"
Imagine Dragons "It`s Time"
PS2: The photo is called "Pokerface Snowman" I think it fits...

Allons-y!!!

Oh...what a year... Full of ups and downs...full of revelations...
I guess you noticed that the title of this story is not a song but is something dear to me(Doctor Who for those who wore just born), but both the title and the photo are related...just hold on to me... So...Allons-y!
The year that is about to end was a very interesting one me...with it`s good parts and god damn awful parts but a year in witch i have learned a lot from...and I`ve been hurt a lot..but mostly learn from it...
I have had revelations about myself , about the world and about the idea of "frendship"(yes, the "forever alone" me was super exited)...
I won`t get into details about the train wreck that was my year(and my life)....but i have come to the conclusion my road is still under construction...
So I say to you all Allons-y dans 2013!!!
All for the better! ;)

What`s This?

Sincer azi ma gandeam sa scriu un articol cu totul diferit(se numea Time To Pretend?!, care poate va vedea lumina monitorului in curand si el) dar extraordinara bucurie m-a lovit din cel, literalmente(NIIIINGEEEEE!!!)si tot ce pot spune ca cu toate prostiile pe care le am in cap acum(grimm grimm things...) cand ninge nu pot sa nu fiu extaziat ca un copil retardat  de 5 ani imi uit orice idee si ma uit la cer si doar zambesc...
Este un lucru pe care il fac de cand ma stiu... De fapt am si iesit in strada sa observ mai indeaproape fulgii de zapada, sa simt cum cad pe mine si ma stau in ninsoare...e ceea ce presupun ca vreau sa zic aici... Am si pus poze pe facebook(desi cred ca e cam redundant, avand in vedere ca e plin facebook-ul de poze cu ninsoare si statusuri ) dar nu am facut-o pentru altii ci pentru mine sa imi aduc aminte de bucuria pe care am simtit-o.
Sunt putine lucruri pe lumea asta care imi dau o asemenea stare de "pot sa fac orice" sau "sunt pe culmile lumii"...
Cu toate ca aveam mult mai multe ideei in cap(dar s-au dus departe in timp ce eu ma uit pe geam si ma gandesc sa mai ies o data in ninsoare) va las cu ideea sa ascultati "What`s This?" de pe soundtrack-ul Nightmare Before Chistmas(sau preferatul meu"Kidnap The Sandy Claws")...
Seara Minunata!!!
P.S.: Stiu ca poza nu e de anul acesta, dar nu am reusit sa fac poze interesante inca...

Cosmic Love and Rabbit Heart...

Now if I really think of it...I have never been in love with someone...or if i had been i`ve been with the wrong person...but is there a wrong person to be in love with? Well...most likely YES!!! Not that there is something wrong with being in love but the thing that makes it bad...or not quite bad but really really unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe(in your terms wrong) is if that love is just in your heart and mind... Yes...falling for the wrong person...or just falling for that person at a bad time(bad timing is olso bad )...or just liking someone like a 5th grade dumb little girl can make you feel Unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe(WRONG!!! or just plain stupid)...or the best way to say it is : ORDINARY...that is just wrong...you feel like you have fallen in this bad state of mind(
"The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
 In the shadow of your heart" as Florance and the Machine brilliantly put it... ).
The thing is...I`ve been hurt by no love or by my stupidity, in bouth cases my fault...or is it? I know I should not think about this because other people have been hurt WAAAAAAAAAAAY more then i was or probably will be(hopefully), but IT still hurt and I still can feel some of the burns...even if they seem stupid in someone elses eyes they still sting or need a stitch or just a warm cup of coffee and a hug...
I don`t still have feelings for my past, I just have a memory of it...the whole experience until now sometimes hurts and leaves hopeless..."And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
But then it stopped, and I was in the darkness,
So darkness I became".
But...then I think"I must become a lion hearted guy, ready for a fight"...
Because love is a gift and it comes with a price...That`s life you know...a constant battle... You MUST BE BRAVE and deal with it... I think that when we wore born we made a deal with Death: to do the best we can at finding our loved one...She is very good to us,She gives us all the time we need, we keep Her from doing Her job(to take us from this existence)... Sometimes She looses her patience, sometimes She just looks into the future(and sees no hope), sometimes She is just bored...BUT sometimes WE don`t keep our end of the deal and waste our Time here...that makes Her angry and punishes us...by making us lonely...
Well...maybe I`m wrong about that(I hope)...
"The looking glass so shiny and new
How quickly the glamor fades
I start spinning slipping out of time
Was that the wrong pill to take (Raise it up)
You made a deal and now it seems you have to offer up
 But will it ever be enough?"

The Point of this rant: It`s ok to feel "trapped in the darkness of your soul" but at the same time WE MUST remember to be brave and keep our lion heart open to hope... So...Dark and twisty or bright and shiny? Why not both?