When I Grow Up The World Is Not Enough...

Do you remember what you wanted to be when you where a kid? All the "when I grow up I`m gonna be..." crap...it`s cute...but ultimately just a few of us do it. I`m not saying it`s a bad thing, we have no idea what life means when you are a kid...and we stay kids for a lot of time...some of us probably are in our mid 20`s and still have the same thought process from kindergarten, it`s not until you hit "The Great Wall of Real Life" you even consider something is not right. And there is still the denial state, when we say "neah, I think like an adult, I`m an adult", well...NO...the adult thought process starts working very slowly and hard...but we get there...somehow...we don`t even realize we killed off our inner-kid(or at best put him in a dungeon where he will start hating the adult you) and when we do...it`s too late...


But being an adult is not that bad...you get to have the illusion you do the right thing, the "This is what`s best for me now..." idea comes...we may even be right... But as time goes by us...we start to think more and more on what have we done by now, "The what have I done with my life" problem comes in, and it`s an equal part god and bad dilemma for us, it can be constructive and at the same time be distructive for us...

When we grow up the concept of "I`m great now, buuuut I still want more" comes to us...We can never be truly happy, yes we do have happy moments...but that`s it...as soon as we solve a problem we find another one...I agree that conflict drives us to get better...but should we let our selfs be driven be our nature or should we let us be happy for once...Truly happy...
Make yourself a favor and do something that makes you happy...

Are you fucking kidding me?

Are you also annoyed when people don`t do what they said they would? Oh, I`m not talking about big things like promising the moon and the stars, I`m talking about shit like calling back or just fucking answering a bloody text!
And it fucking bugs me that I can`t always tell these assholes the same fucking thing over and over again! It`s like talking with a wall... Don`t get me wrong I love these bastards to death(my friends) but is it really that hard to do the small things(that stop me from wanting to put a bullet in their dumbass faces)?
All the small things are so big!
And I fucking hate them some times, but that's the reason I love them...I just want to put my hands around their necks...I mean them and squeeze thigh! ;)
Oh and I've noticed I'm not mature yet, yes I don't consider myself a adult....but I know I've reached a point in my life where I can say I like someone without being shitfaced...yes until now I had to be shitfaced to tell someone I like them(Romantically speaking) I guess I was romantically challenged...well I still am I otherwise...but it's a start!
Alcohol helps...and no I don't drink daly,but I believe it's a great kickstarter! Unless you have a problem with it...which I don't.
Yes...life is full of " are you fucking kidding me?!" moments...but that's a part of it's beauty...I guess...
I'm not an adult yet...but that is ok...I'll get there...one day... I'm growing strong...
So...let's get shitfaced together and see what happens!
Don't forget to sing Soft kitty to me!