Suddenly I See...

"I have an aunt who whenever she poured anything for you would say "Say when!" My aunt would say "Say when!" and of course, we never did. We don't say when because there's something about the possibility, of more. More tequila, more love, more anything. More is better."

(opening quote)

As you may very well know I`m a huge Grey`s Anatomy Fan, adn since "Suddenly I See" is the song that came in my head this time,I thought that it would be a shame not to share this Grey`s quotes with you...
Yes, I totally agree, because it`s in our nature to want more, more love, more money, more knowledge,more tequila, more life, more time...just more...
We think just because we get more that It will be better...well I don`t think that`s the case with most of the things that Life throws at us, we should know our limits...we should know when to say "When"...but in most cases we never do...
Well, I think the quotes rap up all i needed to say..."when"

"There's something to be said about a glass half full. About knowing when to say when. I think it's a floating line. A barometer of need and desire. It's entirely up to the individual. And depends on what's being poured. Sometimes all we want is a taste. Other times there's no such thing as enough, the glass is bottomless. And all we want, is more."

(ending quote Season 2 ep 2)

Je ne veux pas travailler...

Well i think that this song is one of the reasons I just can`t give up smoking, well that and because i`m just a lazy and addictive person...but every time I hear this song i just want to smoke...
This song is just brilliant, it gives me a strange feeling that I can do anything, but i just don`t have to move...because everything is at my feet. It also helps me forget shit that trouble me and i just can`t get out of my head...it really does help.
Edith Piaf is one of the few french singers that i admire and give a fuck about her songs and lyrics, because honestly i just don`t have any giveafuckness(yes, that is a word!!!) for the others, but She is(well was, but stil is) fucking brilliant!!!
Her song have pain, happiness and sometimes the lack of giveafuckness inside of them that make you get inside her head, Her brilliant, mindfucking genius mind!!!!
Another song that just gives me the goosebumps when i listen to it is Mon Dieu(My God) and my God to bad i was single when i first heard it because I just had a complete mindfuck!!!
Now back to my original idea, you see I just love that song...don`t get me wrong, i like working adn thaking lunch, but that song just makes my giveafuckness level a kick to the minus...
So whenever you just don`t want to give a fuck I really do recommend this song!!!
Long live the lack of giveafuckness!!!

Spectrum...

I don't know about you folks, but I sometime stop and think of my life...I mean of my big-ass mess...because I see the 5 past years of it as a wide array of dumb luck to down right retarded choices...of course there have been time when I would consider if I was in a very very very very good dream, but those time are few and never lasted for more than a month at best...
I really cant say I didn't learn a lot and I do consider that we learn more from our mistakes and bad luck than from anything else...but I really think it's time I would take a long vacation from "school"...
Sometimes it's so hard to find meaning in life...I think I would give heaven up if I could find the key to living...because I do think life needs meaning...and I need a good reason to pump blood into my arteries...
I don't think life keeps a score...but if she does(and yes life's a chick, only women are this passive-agressive!)She ows me! Big time!

Well...I don't know about you but i have two personas, Mr.Brightside (the positive one that is always optimistic, a regular sunshine pussy that eats flowers and shits rainbows), a real idiot and Mr. Don't(he's the realistic one), he saved me from a lot of shit in my days...
And as you know all personas are either the one in charge or the one that just pops up from time to time...and i guess I'm lucky Mr. don't is the one ordering things up in there! What can I say I`m a regular Wednesday, except for the lofe of creepy-crawlies and real pain to me...
I always wondered if other people have split personas inside there mind and if yes what kind are they and which is the dominant one...or are they in balance?
So...what`s the essence of this rant? Well I think these lyrics give you a clue(and "Here" is life): When we first came here,
We were cold and we were clear,
With no colours on our skin,
We were light and paper-thin.

My medicine...

Medication...it`s always a good idea... And no...I`m not talking about drugs...or maybe i am...but there are more kinds of drugs then we can imagine...ever...
There are addictive drugs, there are non-addictive drugs and there are drugs that change their properties...
I fear and love all drugs and addictions...but then again...we all should...
My favorite drug(beside coffee) are my friends...It`s a drug we all should take at least once a week and in some cases as often as we need...
Friendship is the only drug we all should be addicted to...It`s properties are good for the mind and body and for the spirit...
They help us in the worst of situations and have fun with us, they mock us when we do stupid things, they give us advice when we need it(and sometime when they think we do)...
It the right concentration this drug does wonders for you...it`s the ultimate medicine...
I`m very proud of my prescription drugs and i take them with pride and joy...
I love me medicine...
Thank the Higgs-Boson particle there are drugs(i.e.Friends ).