"When you're little, night time is scary because there are monsters hiding right under the bed. When you get older, the monsters, are different... self doubt, loneliness, regret... and though you may be older and wiser, you still find yourself scared of the dark."(Meredith Grey, In the midnight hour, Grey`s Anatomy season 5 episode 9)Yes, the night is scary and in the night time we make our worst decisions, even though we(humans as a species) were originally nocturnal creatures...
Yes, doubt is a horrible monster, we think just because we get wiser we can leave doubt behind but no...older and wiser is no help at all...
But doubt is not our only modern monster, modern monsters are hard to define and even harder to banish, although monsters can shape us into better people if we know how to deal with them, you don`t have to slay them to be able to manage them...
I sometimes can`t deal with my monsters and sometimes i get overwhelmed by them...self-doubt, lack of control or just fear...I just want to scream and make it all go away...but that would never help, neither would panic help...I just have to find my inner-balance , my inner-light , my salvation...from all the monsters in my closet...
I sometimes dream of a world without fear, where I am the Master of my world ,monster-free world...I hope to live in that world, not that I`m a sunshine person, but sometimes I like some butterflies...
Until we find a way to manage our monsters we have to lear to get some sleep, sleep is what charges our batteries and we need energy to fight the next day... Yes, one day at a time...one step at a time...
"Sleep. It's the easiest thing to do. You just... close your eyes. But for so many of us, sleep seems out of our grasp. We want it, but, we don't know how to get it. But once we face our demons, face our fears, and turn to each other for help, night time is not so scary, because we realize, we are not all alone in the dark." (Meredith Grey, In the midnight hour, Grey`s Anatomy season 5 episode 9)
