Sober...Sleeping Monster...

Have you ever been so sober that you thought of everything you ever done and everyone you ever met? And thought of everything? But the you asked yourself...what is next...who is next...how is next? Next to what...next to who...next? You know that thought...that dosen't let you close your eyes properly and keeps you awake at night... Have you been a good person...have you done the right thing...have you meet the right person...have you said no to much?
And have you ever thought of all the times you would feel that no one loves you? But how much do you love yourself? I can't say i completely love myself...and I'm not saying I don't judge people for not loving my more...but I think it's time to love myself more...
Yes...sobering time is never easy or painless...and the more time we spend in Wonderland, oblivious of reality...the more painful the sobering up will be...

But pain is growing...and with every scar we grow more stronger... Some scars are deeper than they appear to be, but we must face it when the time comes...

Their is a monster inside us...that sleeps...and awaits for the most unfortunate moment to rise and break out balance...(I'm not done talking about this sleeping monster yet... )

"Infections are like sleeping monsters. You can’t see them, you can’t feel them but you must do everything in your power to contain them. Because when the monsters wake up, they’re out of control.
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All that time you spent telling yourself the sleeping monster wasn’t real, it was gathering strength. The infection was spreading. The monster’s awake now and there’s nothing you can do about it." - Miranda Bailey (Season9, Ep.21-Sleeping Monster)

I'm not talking about the sobering up from dear sweet alchool...we still love our dear sweet loyal friend the alchool... 
So...cheers...to sober us...