Hello cold world...

"22 is like the worst idea that I've ever had It's too much pain, it's too much freedom, what should I do with this?" these are some lyrics from Paramore`s Hello cold world and some of the few lyrics i can relate to now... I guess the main idea in this rant in confusion...or the state of confusion...or both. Nu exista nici o placere in a fi confuz...though when being confused you are not aware of that... I don`t know what exactly i`m feeling right know..."I feel happy, I feel sad
I feel like running through the walls". I guess it`s not really confusion it`s something like this "You say you're really hurting, at least you're feeling something". Yes...I think i`m not feeling anything or at least i don`t have a clue of what i`m feeling...

Pun pariu ca habar n`ai despre ce vorbesc...well...poate ca nici eu...dar chiar simt nevoia sa vorbesc despre ce oi vorbi aici...
"We can hope and we can pray that everything will work out fine,But you can't just stay down on your knees" you got to do something for yourself, cause you are your own best friend...
"Well, maybe I'm not perfect, at least I'm workin' on it", yes I am a work in progress...we all are works in progress...like a building...and we are the architects...and as we build...some parts of us might fall of, some might stay even though it`s impossible to explain why, some might vanish into thin air...we have to do our best job in constructing ourself.
22 is a weird age...at least for me...
Sometimes I hope it ends soon..but somethimes I hope it will never end...
I think i`ve blown you enough for today...i meant your minds...
So...Hello cold world!!!

Russian roulette

Playing with fire...or playing chicken with faith...or russian roulette is something we all do in life...at least once... Doing something that normally would make us say "what the fuck is wrong with me"...but that dose not have to make it a bad thing or something wrong or immoral...it just means it may be harmful to us... IT CAN...is the magic set of words... The possibility of it backfireing the hell out and fucking us in the bad way(sau cum zic eu....uneori viata suge si nu cum as vrea eu). But of course anything can do harm to us...and if we would give in to all our fears we would end up under a tree waiting for our impending doom...
I thing that we should play with fire(somethimes), after all the ape that firs played with fire evolved into man...fire gave man the power to overcome himself...fire can make you more powerful...fire can maintain life...fire can even save you..but in the wright amount!!!
The point i`m make`n here is...never let go of something that hurts, just because it can hurt you, never give up on hoping just because it seams it`s pointless and never run from fire, it always runs faster than you!
Give me the gun cause I`m ready to play LIFE!

Born to die...

"Feet don't fail me now Take me to the finish line" in this game called life...i really wonder when the dice will land in my favor...or are we that blind that we don`t see if Faith is on our side sometimes?
"Lost but now I am found" is what i would want to say...though i still feel lost..."I was so confused as a little child Tried to take what I could get Scared that I couldn't find All the answers" and i still am...i can`t find all the answers and i try to tell myself "The road is long, we carry on Try to have fun in the meantime" although I have a thick head and you can rarely argue with me... But i guess i a bit like life cause i keep telling her "Don't make me sad, don't make me cry Sometimes" life "is not enough and the road gets tough I don't know why Keep making me laugh," but she just gives me reasons to laugh...though sometimes it`s not my laugh...
Life can be seen as many things a road, a book, a tree, a pack of smokes, but i can only see it as a weird son of a bit*h that is making fun of me...

Part of me...

Fun...un subiect fun sa zicem... well cu totii avem un eu interior care ne obliga sa ne mai si distram...si o persoana...
Well...mda...as fi vrut sa discut despre distractie...dar am mintea cam distrasa...intr.un fel... niciodata nu mi.a placut sa recunosc ca imi e dor sau am nevoie de cineva...si poate aici o sa zica 'una lume' ca's cam depresiv...dar nu...pentru ca i'm awesome...yep pure awesome... Ideea e ca m.am cam sau mai bine spus s.a cam detasat din interiorul meu o prietena...ceea ce e oricum trist...dar e mai trist cand era o prietena de 'haaaaat cand' si cand acea prietena a fost cu tine si a ascultat toate tampeniile debitate de gura ta... nu da bine creiesasului si nici energiei tale...dar...uneori se mai intampla si d'astea si te trezesti ca ai un gol in interiorul tau... ce faci aci? Pai...reactia normala ar fi sa umpli acel gol cu ceva...ma rog cu cineva(ca sa nu ne gandim la prostii)... E greu dupa parerea mea sa iti faci Prietenii noi si ma refer la prieteni adevarati(ceea ce nu ma pot plange niciodata ca duc lipsa si pentru care sunt recunoscator in fiecare zi). Ideea e ca este un 'post' mai greu de inlocuit...well titlul are o logica a lui...vedeti voi...postul pentu care trebuie sa gasesc omul potrivit este 'tipa care sa imi asculte toate prostiile scoase pe cura si care sa ias cu mine la cafea/cumparaturii/plimbare si orice activitate care sa necesite feed-back urgent la ce tampenii iti vin in cap'...mda lunga si grea denumirea postului...stiu, dar sper sa nu ramana vacant prea mult timp...pentru ca nu da bine in rapoartele pentru conducere... mda...eu chiar cred ca omul poate fi comparat cu o companie...dar o sa zic alta data despre asta...
Si cum ziceam...it's great to be awsome... ceea ce as putea sa adaug e sa amintesc de o melodie care se semiporiveste(daca scoti partea in care e vorba de un cuplu) si este vorba de "Part of me" de la Katy Perry...just cause i'm awesome!
PS Initial articolul avea ca titlu "Girls just wanna have fun", dar l-am schimbat pt ca cred ca e mai ok titulul curent.

Cough syrup

Confusion...its when you haven`t the slightest clue what the hell you should do or feel, you have no idea where to go or who to follow, can`t see your allies from your enemy`s...its a terrible thought...its even worst then puberty...its even worse then Rebecca Black`s music...its Stalin for the soul...its like a ten ton brick that fell on you on your wedding day, its like a house that just fell on you when you wore this close on destroying the munchkins...it`s like being lost in your house or scared of a hug...
The thing is...we should get a cornerstone for our life and rely on that because we should never give in to confusion...it`s poisonous and like all things that are bad for us we should get a cure...
Like every poison, confusion leaves marks...
Marks can be good or bad...you can learn a lot from them...and we should always take notice of what we learned so far...
I honestly don`t know if i`m cured but i do believe i`m on the right path...

Breath of life..

Need...a basic human calling... We all have our needs, for power, for love, for affection, for attention, for lust, for wealth for god, for wisdom, for revenge, for addiction, for blood, for knowledge , for sex, for celebrety, for enlightment, for change, for war...but the biggest human need is for more...more then he is and more than he has and more then they have to offer and more then he gets and more then there is...
Our first lust is need...we look for need where there is none and we call for need... yes...need is The human calling...
Our songs are full with need...
Our faith is full of need...
Our calling is for need...
We evolved of and for need...
Wise men say they can set themselfs free from their need...but are they really wise or just fools that think there wise...
I think we should not betray our nature, cause need is our nature, we should embrace our nature...for that our nature can show us our way...

No light, no light

Well now... i could talk about words for days... You see words have a great deal of power over us... they can make you happy, they can make you sad, they can make you furious, they can make you extatic , the point is: they can control our emotions...and that is kinda terifing. words can olso teach or dumnb people. words can enslave or impower. Words can save you or doom you... Even the absence of words can make us harm or good... The right words can win a war and the wrong words can end your existence. Words can inprison or can set you free. We are a society of words... the art of mastering words is a fine and dangerous art, in the Silmarilion(a prolog to the lord of the rings) the creator made the world from a song(i can only guess the song had lyrics, but even if it had not...words are olso sounds ) as well in the Chronicles of Narnia, Aslan made the world from a song...well in many religions the world was made from words... All the magic spells are words... yes...i hope i helped you understand the power of words, their strenght and weaknesses, their influence upon the world and man...