Seven Devils...

Feer... Well now...that's a tought feeling...tought and evil...actualy if i think about it...it's one of MAN's moust horible states...yes...in some cases it can seve your life but of cousrse i'm not talking about that kind of fear...i'm actualy talking about the one that gets you into trubble...with yourself... IT will never help you defeat your deamons...on the contrary, THEY will become
stronger and stronger...until...until YOU will no longer EXIST... The fear inside you is your worst enemy...yes YOU! You should just try to defeat your fear because you will find yourself overpowered by IT... I've named this post Seven Devils because it's one of the songs that i listen to whenever i see a battle with myself coming...it's really inspiering and allways makes me feel like all the armies in the world are there fighting in my favor... It's a great feeling...and i wouldn't give it up for nothing(if only i'd have seven armies fighting for me, i thing that would be better:)))
Well...i guess...the point is...defeat your fear or at least try to overcome it...or YOU might just find yourself LOST...and no person in the world can save you from that!

Bedroom Hymms

Happiness...well...yow know, happiness is a concept that you don't get to understand to often in your life...and to feel it, it's just bliss, simple and utter bliss...
you may not be the most important/smart/powerful/lucky/good/caring(and i would and other adjectivs, but i think you got the point )person in the world, but when happiness gets interested in your person...you should feel overjoyed and utterly blessed by all forces and gods...
When i was younger, and i guess less wise(though i can't really say i see myself as a wise person now) i thought we all get a smile from her and get to be happy(from time to time at least)...but as you grow older you tend to see how the world works and realise life is waaaaaaay diferent from what you imagined...their is were the fork in your road apeares...eather you hope for the best(but prepare for the worst), eather you give up and never see her smile even if she's giving you the molars.
You know...some of my favorite lyrics go like this : "I'm not here looking for absolution Because I've found myself an old solution" because i hope and pray that she never forgets to smile to me as I will never forget to smile(although i sometime try reeeeeeeeeeeealy hard).
I guess the point to this is...i think I'm happy right now...

Dream a little dream of me...

Fairy tales...the stuff of dreams... YOU know...the person who invented the happily ever after concept should seriously have his but kicked! fairy tales don't come true! ok...i may be exaggerating...but i still wanna kick that idiots ass! you know what...i've always said that shit happens...daily...and you have to get over it and stop being all armagedony about life... but that really does NOT mean i don't wish i would have a happy ending...or at least(i can't be picky)some shiny and deserving to be kicked in the face happy day(well...i can't say i haven't been...kicked in the face that is). but then again...i must be thinking of fairy tales if i'm wishing on a star for happines...but can anyone honestly say they are not wishing and hopeing for the same goddamn thing... i allways promised myself i wouldn't be all mushy mushy about life...but i guess you can't fight your nature...though...sometimes i should save myself from my own stupidity...though a prince charming wouldn't hurt(you know)... now...going back to my point...i guess what i'm saying here is life is full of posibilities...try your luck...but be carefull, be very very carefull...happines has a wierd ideea of life....

blood...and other bounds...

You know something...i think i'm not the only one who believes there is more to family then blood... As you come into this world you are just a pound of meat...a very annoying and weak pound of meat, you start growing and by the time you started walking in this world you tend to tell who is you're blood...years go by you, the blood-bonds grow and you start having friends...yes nothing new here huh? well... As we go on living, and if we are lucky enough we get to choose some of our family members(and i'm Not talking about a spouse) and if our luck is just endless we keep our new family for the rest of our lives...because some of them will just poof out of your life faster than you say pi... you know what...? i for one love my friends, and i consider myself lucky enough to have a second family... That not only i choose...but they choose me... of course this is not really a universal thing... in the end you never stand alone...even though you you feel that...no one is alone...even if some of your new family betray your trust...the trust of friendship and part you...or worse... I guess you noticed by now that this is just one of my rants...but i think it's a good one ;) oh and sorry about the lack of care...i just wrote it in a heartbeat...

Through the looking glass...

You know what? Reality sucks...yes, reality sucks hard... It is in my surtenty that if any one of us chould chouse we whould take our imaginary selfs life`s any time... You know...the person or character from our favorite book or movie or even from one of our draem... I believe that writers don`t have imagination...they have the skill to see through the looking glass(in my idea that means to see in one of the many multiverses). Well not all of them have the same power of understanding of their gift...so they just see a small glimpse...and they use their imagination for the rest of the story... I for one am not sure I have that gift or am just off my medication... So yes, i probably am mad as a hatter...but that is who i would have chousesen to be...The mad Hatter or...a variation of Luna Lovegood...she is the moust insightfull person in the hole Harry Potter universe, she sees things in a other light(what i like more about her is that she sees something good in everybody). What i never understood in people is their inability to see their path in life...not that i can see it at the moment, i am rather lost in my vision, but i believe i can find my path as everybody else. The point is that looking glass self is just behind the corner waiting for you to find him...waiting for you to become him...the "YOU" you always cared to become, the "YOU"your path will lead you to... Some Men have waited their hole life to become...
So find your looking glass an step into it...in can`t get any worse than this...

The Dark Passenger

This entry is about that dark thing inside all of us...that i`m gonna name it "the dark passenger". Probably you know i`m riping Dexter, but fuck you that`s why... This "dark passenger" is always there with you, just waiting for his turn to take control... We all have "him" inside of us, of course we don`t all have the same kind of "dark passenger" and it may not have the same power or influence...it`s still there...and it has a rout inside us...we can`t get rid of "him" and probably we`re better with it inside...deep inside...it may save us, or it may kill us. We can try to control "him"...try...and hope you don`t fail...hope...
I still try to understand "him", i talk to "him"...sometimes we laugh...sometimes "he" scares me, but sometimes i get to scare "him", and then...then i understand a bit more about myself...although you can never know yourself or "him" completely...
I end with one thought...is "he" evil or good...against us or works for us...and more important is "he" us or is there something more to the story?

Spring has sprung...

Well...march is here so...spring has come again...my most hated season...why it literally sucks? Well that`s easy...it`s weird, it`s soggy and it can`t make up his mind if it`s hot or it`s cold...
With that noted i can only go on to my most solid argument is that spring is "depression season"...it`s the time when i mostly get down...and few things can bring a smile to my face...
I can`t really say why, but that`s the way the cookie crumbles...
In other news i`ve got o new show in my list, and of course it`s from Showtime, and yes i`m talking about Dexter :D.
ttyl...