blood...and other bounds...

You know something...i think i'm not the only one who believes there is more to family then blood... As you come into this world you are just a pound of meat...a very annoying and weak pound of meat, you start growing and by the time you started walking in this world you tend to tell who is you're blood...years go by you, the blood-bonds grow and you start having friends...yes nothing new here huh? well... As we go on living, and if we are lucky enough we get to choose some of our family members(and i'm Not talking about a spouse) and if our luck is just endless we keep our new family for the rest of our lives...because some of them will just poof out of your life faster than you say pi... you know what...? i for one love my friends, and i consider myself lucky enough to have a second family... That not only i choose...but they choose me... of course this is not really a universal thing... in the end you never stand alone...even though you you feel that...no one is alone...even if some of your new family betray your trust...the trust of friendship and part you...or worse... I guess you noticed by now that this is just one of my rants...but i think it's a good one ;) oh and sorry about the lack of care...i just wrote it in a heartbeat...

Through the looking glass...

You know what? Reality sucks...yes, reality sucks hard... It is in my surtenty that if any one of us chould chouse we whould take our imaginary selfs life`s any time... You know...the person or character from our favorite book or movie or even from one of our draem... I believe that writers don`t have imagination...they have the skill to see through the looking glass(in my idea that means to see in one of the many multiverses). Well not all of them have the same power of understanding of their gift...so they just see a small glimpse...and they use their imagination for the rest of the story... I for one am not sure I have that gift or am just off my medication... So yes, i probably am mad as a hatter...but that is who i would have chousesen to be...The mad Hatter or...a variation of Luna Lovegood...she is the moust insightfull person in the hole Harry Potter universe, she sees things in a other light(what i like more about her is that she sees something good in everybody). What i never understood in people is their inability to see their path in life...not that i can see it at the moment, i am rather lost in my vision, but i believe i can find my path as everybody else. The point is that looking glass self is just behind the corner waiting for you to find him...waiting for you to become him...the "YOU" you always cared to become, the "YOU"your path will lead you to... Some Men have waited their hole life to become...
So find your looking glass an step into it...in can`t get any worse than this...

The Dark Passenger

This entry is about that dark thing inside all of us...that i`m gonna name it "the dark passenger". Probably you know i`m riping Dexter, but fuck you that`s why... This "dark passenger" is always there with you, just waiting for his turn to take control... We all have "him" inside of us, of course we don`t all have the same kind of "dark passenger" and it may not have the same power or influence...it`s still there...and it has a rout inside us...we can`t get rid of "him" and probably we`re better with it inside...deep inside...it may save us, or it may kill us. We can try to control "him"...try...and hope you don`t fail...hope...
I still try to understand "him", i talk to "him"...sometimes we laugh...sometimes "he" scares me, but sometimes i get to scare "him", and then...then i understand a bit more about myself...although you can never know yourself or "him" completely...
I end with one thought...is "he" evil or good...against us or works for us...and more important is "he" us or is there something more to the story?

Spring has sprung...

Well...march is here so...spring has come again...my most hated season...why it literally sucks? Well that`s easy...it`s weird, it`s soggy and it can`t make up his mind if it`s hot or it`s cold...
With that noted i can only go on to my most solid argument is that spring is "depression season"...it`s the time when i mostly get down...and few things can bring a smile to my face...
I can`t really say why, but that`s the way the cookie crumbles...
In other news i`ve got o new show in my list, and of course it`s from Showtime, and yes i`m talking about Dexter :D.
ttyl...

Roots and branches...

Oh...the safe and pleasent feeling of rooting and branching out... I don`t really think it happens that often in life when you are in that place...that place in your mind that makes you feel accomplished and in the right direction... Yes...rare and precious moments...but beware...it does not happen to rarely that life uproots you and leaves you just a sad broken branch... Well, maybe i`m over-thinking it...again, like always... I always wonder if it`s all in my head or really happening...or at least to what extent.
Well...as we all know

Life sucks in the bad way.

No it`s not healthy to lean on the past...
The good part is when everything falls back into place...and you learn your lesson...until the next time...

Patterns

Well...we all have our patters...some are good some bad...some constructive some destructive... I guess i could talk about this for days...but no..i`m gonna rant about one type of pattern we all now and hate...the destructive part when we start a "thing" with someone and you don`t know or you can just guess in witch direction it goes...but still you think of the worst...i guess it is just paranoia...i just hate it...but still it`s my most frequent destructive pattern...or i just think about this all the time cause i`m just a sad little kitty... So do me a favor and sing soft kitty to me :D. It will probably not help me but it will still steal a smile from me... Well there is always chocolate and alcohol :))

Adrift and at peace

Este aproape un an de cand n`am mai postat nimic...e ciudat, nu credeam ca mai postez vreodata...dar cred totusi ca imi place :D
Deci titlul de azi reprezinta partial sentimentul meu de acum...i`m adrift and almoust at peace... the adrift part is because i feel like i`m not in that place were i should be, were i want to actualy...but hey i`m young and stuff...but i`m at peace..for now...
E destul de ciudat sentimentul e un fel de limbo...nothing bad is happening but still it won`t get better...cred ca imaginea din postare spune totul...